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It would appear that you are experiencing one problem after another. When one problem is resolved, another seems to immediately take its place. It could well be that you are trying too desperately to evade or to escape from your present situation and it is 'you' that is causing the problems to manifest themselves. You need to slow down a little.

You are very self-sufficient and methodical. You presume to know where you are going but need to find a person who will recognise the way you are, not be too demanding and who is, as they say in Italy, 'Simpatico'.

You feel tired - worn out and listless. The last thing that you want to do is to be in an open conflict with those around you that are forever tormenting you. What to do? That's the rub. You are feeling that you are being choked - unable to breathe.

Whatever has caused the situation, you just don't seem to be able to sustain or maintain relationships as you would wish to. What you really seek is to be able to develop a relationship with someone with whom you can truly share: Love, Serenity, Peace and Quiet. But you are a very demanding person and it is your nature that leads to disquiet and discord: you are like the tide, flotsam and jetsam... One minute you experience 'highs' and a few moments later 'lows'. This obviously will introduce discord into any relationship and with this demanding attitude - the ideal state you desire is unable to develop. Despite the urge to gratify your natural desires, you impose a considerable self-restraint on your instincts in the belief that this demonstrates your superiority and raises you above the common herd. You are extremely critical of everything that is presently going on around you and you find it difficult to listen to or to take advice from anyone. You enjoy the original, the ingenious and the subtle.

You feel that you need to move on. You feel that you are not appreciated or valued for what you are and that the time is 'now'. Failure to do so will not afford you the conditions to prove your worth.

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i was lying in bed last night, with the radio on, when they started playing rivermaya and then parokya ni edgar, two of the only three bands i've succumbed into liking[the other's eheads], ever since i entered highschool.
I remembered the other night, when flery and i were talking about graduation, and she wanted me to cry, but i'm not the kind of person who cries easily. I, unfortunately, am the kind of person who keeps in everything til the moment comes that i would just breakdown for hours.
All this talk about highschool makes me want to just fast forward into college, because i know that in college, i'm gonna have to move on, and not dwell on the past. I've seen my college friends; they're not like, oh gosh, i miss high school all the time. nope, they're too busy thinking about passing and requirements and stuff.

i was absent this morning. that's not usually news, but that means i only have 11 lates or 3 absences left, or else i won't be marching on the 19/18th. anyway, this morning i was too lazy to take a shower, so i decided not to go to school. then at noon, i was supposed to go to school, but when i turned the telly on and hbo was airing this:


how could i say no to that? i've always, always wanted to see the bucket list. Greysh used that title before, and Jessica Zafra wrote a review on it in Twisted Flicks, and last night i watched the last 5 seconds of the movie, so i just could not let the chance pass.
epic movie. it was everything i knew it would be. i almost even cried, except my my mom was there and she's honestly not the type who watches movies like that. anyway, yeah.
the typical reaction to watching this film is to make my own bucket list, but nay. i'm going to live my life first. and just like Morgan Freeman, i'll make a list when i'm about to die. err, of course i'm not sure as to when i'm gonna die, maybe when it feels like so. honestly, i' belong to the 4% who'd want to know when they're gonna die.