i'm feeling quite sucky today.
now that the whole Elcid and Kristan situation's dunzo, here comes Christian and Ray: and they're collecting more minions at this very moment.
See? I've been way to positive about things that one petty blow was enough to make me want to cry. again. this is not good.
i've finally got the investigatory project done... i thought sir tomas would extend til tomorrow(yesterday was the deadline), but apparently he wasn't in the mood to be nice, so i ran to the college canteen which is about a kilometer far away, and downloaded my partial draft from my email. that's about the only use of my email account now. saving projects. lulz
today was pretty okay. ma'am aleta's foster father died yesterday and i felt awful cause i did nothing but trash her all sem break long for her resentment towards me.
i didn't say condolence. of course i feel sorry for her! but i'm just not that type of person who talks about those kinds of things, I'd just pray for the person. Like Tezza's gran and Arnem's dad.
I was actually pretty suicidal these past few days, that's why i've been off the blogosphere. I've been cussing way too much on my past blog, it makes me feel a brand new kind of low. I've written goodbye letters, and the burial songs and the date and everything. looking back... that was pretty stupid. i should never, never, give up.
anyway, now that's school's back, i'm busy again. and it keeps my mind off those kinds of things. I'm proud to say that i've chosen which course to take. or career path, rather. I'm going to be a banker, since starting a business is too scary for me. (:
I won't be coming to the DSPC tomorrow, cause I got too chicken of losing yesterday during the meeting and bailed, which is bull. I regret letting my hatred towards the moderator crash my dreams of making it to RSPC. stupid, stupid, stupid!
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about the crappy url, i knowww it's retrospect, but it's already taken, so there.
