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i got back yesterday around noon, and we weren't able to go to SM and do Christmas party shopping, and we were supposed to pass through Gensan since Buluan wasn't really safe, so we waited for teh principal and a couple of male teachers for the decision. we passed through Buluan, and I don't really know what to say about it cause I, unfortunately.. was asleep when we were in Buluan. anyway, I was in the van with Kenneth, Ariel, Lemuel, Arnem and Janilyne, Valerie, Shariah, Klier, Matthew, Ephol and Sister Carol. It was pretty awkward, when we were going to Davao, cause I thought they thought I was jealous, which I wasn't, but whatever.

I received 23 letters. I was honestly expecting just 2, from Precious and Flery, cause I didn't think I had anything to say to everyone else..apparently not. I wrote letters for

woah. I wrote 20 pala, cool. But Shariah, Daniel, Rigel & Arnem didn't write me back. Arnem and Daniel asked, but Shariah was shocked as hell, and I just had to write to Rigel. I bet everyone I wrote to were shocked with my sentimental side. A lot of them said they were touched, but their letters were so very non-touching. A lot of them, but not all of them. The ones with asterisks on their names were the people i didn't expect were giving me letters.

Do you guys know that backstab activity? the one with the piece of paper on your back? yeah. the top two things people wrote about me was that i was suplada, and maingay. and the worst was palagi naga-libak, which in my book is one and the same as plastic, and that's one thing I never want to be. Suplada, no plans on changing that soon. Besides, I'm only that way to people I'm not friends with, I don't want people thinking I'm nice and that they can step on me. As for maingay, I'm gonna change that. oh, right. someone even wrote that I was KSP. KSP. are you kidding me? ew. fine, then. I won't talk to the whole class at one time anymore. Someone also wrote maarte, and I was like ehmahgahd. I bet that person wouldn't believe me if I said I was way more maarte in Montessori. Sobrang nagpapakasimple na nga ako ngayon eh, to the point where I actually hung out with people I should have never hung out with!

Anyway, I never thought Elcid would say sorry to me, and that Shariah and Anna would forgive me for my bitchiness, but they did. Anna and I are very good friends now, Shariah and I.. I can't be friends with her. I'm sure about that, but at least we've put the past behind us now. And Elcid. Elcid said sorry to me! gahhh. I was so shocked.

So during the last night, our teacher told us all sorts of stuff happening back home, and I was so worried. It felt weird to have my home be talked about like that, not knowing what the truth was. But I was so scared though. I really didn't know who to believe. We couldn't possibly stay in Davao, because we were neighbors with Ampatuan, and we all wanted to pass through Gensan, what with the gunshots being fired while Juan Paolo's batch were passing Buluan. Shariah even received a text from an anonymous number, saying that women have been raped and killed, and we were just so effing scared. Especially because we have received threats and that my classmate's grandfather is Ampatuan himself.

We got home yesterday, and Tacurong wasn't as "dangerous" as it was reported to be. I bet our teacher just wanted to scare us so we wouldn't have to go to SM and watch New Moon.haha

Will post photos soon.